Circondato ma da solo

Surrounded but
Alone.
That is how I feel.
I am surrounded by so many
People;
Friends who love me and support me,
A family that loves and encourages me,
Teachers who want only the best for me,
And total strangers who don't even know me.
Every day,
I am surrounded by people.
All kinds of people, and yet...
I feel
Alone.
Hopelessly, helplessly, and endlessly
Alone.

I try to smile and be happy;
I try to keep up my act of "I'm perfectly fine"
But...
Every day, it's getting harder and harder to
Fake it.
I try to forget the past...
I try to forget
You...
But I can't.
The more we talk, the more we connect, the more I
Miss you.
The more I see you, the more I hear your voice, see your face,
The more I
Want to be with you
Again.
I see you smile and wish that I could be the reason for that
Smile.
I hear you laugh and wish that it could be me who makes you laugh
Again.
I look you in the eyes, and I hope to God that you can't see the
Pain
I'm in; how much I
Want
You again.
I don't want you to see me like this, in this pain, because I want you to
Move on
And be with whoever makes you happy...
But...
I want to be that person.
I want to be the one to make you happy.

I can't talk to anyone.
I can't.
No one seems to understand me.
I try to talk, but everyone pushes my feelings aside, like they're
Nothing.
Everyone tries to help me;
They try to get me to think of other things, get my mind off the
Past.
But it doesn't do any good.
Nothing helps.
I see couples together and I think to myself,
"What did I do wrong? What's wrong with me?
Why?
Why?
Why?"

I am surrounded by people.
I am loved by so many people.
So...
Why?
Why do I feel so
Alone?
Why?
I don't want to be alone forever, but...
I think forever has already arrived.