Wanting

To the one I want. You know who you are.

Wanting.
I want you.
I want to be with you, and the look in your
Eyes
Tells me that you want to be with
Me
Too.
I see it there, your eyes tell me the
Truth;
Even if your mouth lies,
Even if your words speak falsely.


I want you.
I want to feel your arms around me
Always.
I want to taste your kiss on my lips
Always.
I want to breathe in the scent of you
Always.
I want you.


Why is it that I always want the one person that I
Can't
Have?
Why does my heart beat faster when
You're around?
Why do I dream of the day when you will 
Want 
Me as much as I want 
You?
Why do I want the one guy who has rejected me, 
But 
Reject the guy that loves me?
Why do I continue to give my 
Heart
Away to the one who doesn't
Want it?

The most painful thing in the world is
Watching
The one you love,
Love someone 
Else.
The greatest sorrow is knowing you will
Never
Have the one you
Want.
And the hardest reality is knowing
He 
Will
Never
Be 
Mine. 


And yet...
I continue to play the game.
I continue to wish, and dream and 
Hope
That someday, someday, 
You will return my love, my feelings,
My desires. 
And yet...
Somewhere, deep in my heart, 
I know you 
Never
Will. 
I know you will never love me, 
I know you will never return my feelings or
Desires. 
I know all of this.
And yet... 


The greatest mystery in the world:
Why do we love the ones that reject us, 
And reject the ones that love us?
The most agonizing pain is knowing 
The one you want the most will
Never 
Be 
Yours. 
The most gut-wrenching feeling is being hopelessly in 
Love, 
And having to watch them walk away to go 
Love 
Someone else. 
And the hardest words to be told are:
"You're not my type"
"It would never work between us"
"I never wanted you like that"


Wanting. 
I want you. 
I want what I cannot have. 
I want what will never be mine. 
We can play pretend all we want, but 
In
Truth, 
We both know that we are only 
Fooling
Ourselves. 
We pretend, we make believe, we act. 
But it's not real. 
We both know that. 
If it was real, you would want me as I 
Want 
You. 
If it was real, we wouldn't play pretend. 
We wouldn't act as though nothing is 
Wrong. 
We wouldn't fake the smile, the laugh.
We would be real, honest. 
We wouldn't need to pretend. 
But we do pretend.
And we enjoy every minute of it. 


I want you. 
You know this...
And yet, 
You do not want me. 
It will never be. 
I can wish upon every star, 
And you will never love me. 
You will never be with me. 
What happens when you're my Prince Charming, 
But I'm not your Cinderella? 
I want you. 
You say it will never be. 
And still, I will continue to want you. 
You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
But
You cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to 
Feel.