I'm getting close to finishing up this blog, and I've already got another blog currently in the works. It won't be here on Blogger though. I've found a different site for blogging, and even though I love Blogger I've decided to try this one and see how I like it. At the moment, I'm still trying to figure out how to customize it (it's more complicated than Blogger, so I might not stick with it for long.) So yeah, be on the look for that. If you are my friend on Facebook and you use FB to read my blog posts, I'll post a link on there when I've gotten the first post up. Hopefully I'll be more consistent with my posting for this new blog, since this summer I kind of slacked off on actually writing posts. I'm hoping that with school coming up soon I'll have more to talk about (my schedule, at the moment, is mostly wide open. I'm not taking as many courses in the fall, but I'm thinking that my activities outside of school will be keeping me pretty busy. Not sure what all I'll be doing outside of school, but I'm hoping to audition for Opera Leggera at the Nathaniel Center, and also I'm hoping to have another job, plus I'm wanting to be part of more dance things at the college. Yeah, this semester could be really busy, hahaha.)
Speaking of school, I can't wait for classes to start! I've been pretty bored this summer, with the exception of 'Carmen', so I will be welcoming school with open arms... until it gets close to midterms and finals. Then I won't be so happy to be in school, hahaha! Also, it's going to feel weird; Mitchell, one of our best tenors in Chamber Singers, is going off to Oklahoma State University, along with Anthony and Chelsey. I'm going to miss Mitchell :-( we all are. He's such nice guy; fun, funny, and a good singer. But, he'll be back during Christmas break so I'm sure I'll get to see him then. Also, we're getting the new music building, so that's definitely something to look forward to. But do you know what I really can't wait for? Ballet class. Yep, I have most definitely missed doing ballet this summer, so I can't wait to start up again in the fall. I never thought that I would like doing ballet, but now that I've got my dream of becoming a star on Broadway, the ability to be able to dance has suddenly become very important to me. I want to be a Triple Threat (that means, a person who can act, sing AND dance. If you can do all three of those, you can really go places in the musical industry.)
So, guess what? I've got an audition for NBC's newest talent competition show "The Voice". I'm not sure how many of you have heard of it or seen it, but you should check it out some time. It's brand new, they just finished with their first Season, and this Wednesday they are coming to Houston to hold auditions for Season 2. I have to be honest; I'm freaking out. I'm so nervous about this! Basically, I'm auditioning to audition to be on the show... if that makes any sense. I have to audition for the producers and other people who run the show, and then if I make it through the open auditions, I could get a callback, and if I make it through the callbacks, then I'll be going on the TV show. But first, I just want to make it through the first round of auditions. I have to prepare 2 a cappella songs to sing, and I've decided on singing "People" and "My Man" by Barbra Streisand. Yeah, I realize it's probably risky going with Barbra. After all, she's a legend! But those 2 songs are really good for my voice and they really show off my range, plus I love the lyrics and I can sing those songs right from my heart.
And now, that crazy little thing called Love. As I sit here, trying to figure out exactly what to say, I can't help but think about what happened a year ago this month. Thinking about it brings back a lot of memories; painful memories. Memories that, no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do to try and erase them from your mind you just can't rid yourself of them. Maybe years from now I'll forget everything... or not. You would have thought that after a year I would have gotten through this. On the contrary. Sure, the pain is not as intense as it was a year ago. A year ago, I found myself going into a downward spiral, fighting off depression and trying to move through the initial stages of grief. Now I'm okay... mostly. Yes, the feelings I had for him are gone, that's for sure. But the hurt is still there, waiting in the darkest corners of my mind. It's like a cottonmouth snake. You're walking along, not a care in the world, when suddenly BAM! You're face-to-face with a white mouth and fangs, ready to inject its poison into you if you take another step (this actually happened to me a few months ago. Ran into a cottonmouth while I was walking along the shore of Lake Houston. Scared the hell out of me, and I ran away from that thing as fast as I could. After my heart stopped pounding, however, I kind of wanting to go back and get a better look at it, but then I realize that I was not Steve Irwin so I probably shouldn't.)
Anyway, snakes aside, as I stated in my last 2 posts, I have found myself once again bitten by the Love Bug. It's funny how you can find love in that one person you never expected to have feelings for. It was never supposed to happen; I was never supposed to have feelings for this person. But, as a series of events came along, I suddenly found myself constantly thinking about him, talking about him, and even having some dreams about him. Before I knew what was happening, I had completely fallen for the guy. It's hard to tell if he feels the same way; guys are hard to read most of the time. But I'm sure time will reveal everything. It usually does, for better or for worse. But I hope it's for better, hahaha :-)
Well, I guess that's it for now. I've got my audition for "The Voice" tomorrow, and it still hasn't quite sunk it that I'm actually going to audition for a TV singing competition, but I'm sure it will once I get to the audition and I'm singing in front of the producers of the show. Then I'll be thinking "Oh God... I'm ACTUALLY doing this..." And then I'll start freaking out, hahaha! Anyway, I guess I'll go for now. I'll be sure to post later on this week if I make it to the callbacks. Until then, later!
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