Well, this blog is almost finished, since I'm only five more posts away from 100 posts. Don't know yet if I'll write a third one or what I'll call it if I do write another one, but I'll figure that out when the times comes, if it does. Anyway, the summer is almost over, thank goodness. This has probably been one of the worst summers ever, mainly because dad still hasn't found a job (well, he DID find one, but then about a week after he started, the company had to close down, so then it was back to square one), and we have had more car problems this summer than I can begin to count. We have now lost the Lumina, the blue car that I have been driving since I got my license. There were too many problems that needed to be fixed and it would have cost more to fix it than what the car is actually worth, so we're just going to scrap it, get what we can for it and start looking for another car for me. The only good thing I had this summer was 'Carmen'. That saved me. If it hadn't been for going to rehearsals 3 days a week, I know I would have completely lost whatever sanity I have left in me.
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately; work, money, and my future mostly. At the moment, my future is a blank canvas. I don't know what is going to happen. Sure, I have some plans, but nothing ever goes completely according to plan. That's just how life is, and I'm starting to realize that. The way the world is right now, everything looks very bleak and ominous; nothing is sure, nothing certain but death and nothing is stable and strong. Everything breaks, ends, dies. Nothing is sacred anymore. Everywhere I go these days it seems that everyone is depressed or stressing about something. No one is happy, and nothing is good. There is no good news, there is no joy or happiness; only depression, sadness, sorrow, death, failure, stress, poverty, hunger, thirst, you name it. But there is no joy. Everyone is affected by the bleak economy, even the rich. There is no silver lining, no rainbow after the rain; only never ending storms and black clouds.
There's a lot more things I've been thinking about, or rather I should say, there's a couple people I've been thinking about a lot lately, one in particular. However, due to unforeseen circumstances, I will refrain from speaking about this person, although I'm sure everyone knows already who that person is. Either way, I will refrain from talking about this person in any more of my posts. Simple as that. By the way, I'm in love. Yep, you read that correctly. I'm in love. And that, my dear readers, is as much as I'm going to say. But, yes, I am in love. And I must say that, despite all of the chaos, the anxiety, the depression, the sadness, and everything bad or horrible in this world these days, all of that fades away when I'm with this person (yes, this person is a guy, just to clarify for those of you who were perhaps wondering, hahaha. Yeah, I don't swing that way.) I have this feeling of completion when I'm with this person, like I've found my missing puzzle piece. And, now I will talk no more of this person. I can't. Not because I don't want to, but because there are persons that have forced me to refrain from posting about this particular person.
Anyway, I've also been listening to a variety of music lately; French love songs, songs by Sting, classic Disney songs, songs from 'Les Miserables', basically a very strange variety. I suppose it's because I'm becoming more aware of how music affects my life, my thoughts, my emotions. It affects you more than you realize; a certain song will give you certain thoughts, different memories, different emotions, and another song will give you another set of certain thoughts, memories and emotions. It's quite amazing, really. Simple, but amazing. Music is becoming more of my passion rather than just a hobby. Sure, music has always been my first love, but now I'm starting to feel consumed by it, in a good way. I wouldn't want it any other way. Music is now touching every area of my life, personal and social life. Songs, lyrics, melodies, all of it swirls around in my head throughout the day, and I'm slowly beginning to use songs to say things if I find that I have no words that I can use to express what I'm feeling. Some would say this is a dangerous place to be, but I find it to be very exciting, exhilarating. After all, music is my life. It's what I've always wanted. And it will always be a major part of my life.
Wow, I've said a lot, for someone who hasn't posted in forever! Well, I've got a couple songs I want to share with you. The first 2 are in French, and sorry they don't have the English translation with it, but the music itself is so beautiful that you probably won't even care about what the words mean, haha. The third one is a song by Sting, and it is the reason behind this post title. I highly, highly, HIGHLY recommend that you take a listen to this song. The lyrics are very powerful, and they can and do apply to everyone, no matter who you are. It may not be your type of music, but I suggest you take a listen anyway. I've never heard a song like this before, one that has touched me so personally. It's hard to explain exactly what this song has done to me; it's something you have to experience for yourself, and maybe it won't affect you the way it has me but I think you should still listen, at least once. I think the lyrics basically sum up everything about life.
Well, I guess that's it for now, dear readers. Hopefully I'll be able to write more once school gets closer (I go back on August 29th.) Ciao! :-)
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